…But I really did see the Boogeyman.

I often have really horrific dreams. I always have, for as long as I can remember. Sometimes they are lucid, and other times I have no control what-so-ever, and don’t realize I’m just dreaming. I used to keep a very updated dream journal… but somehow that sort of fell by the wayside. Now when I hit the pillow, I am OUT.

I used to be very adventurous with my consciousness, and experimenting with it’s capabilities. When I was 18 – 19 years old, I dabbled in astral projection, and had my first astral experiences… very neat. I met one of my guides, the first one I ever met actually. In the form of a man. Now I mostly connect with animal spirit guides.

I love reading Erin’s blog, because it is incredibly inspiring, and because she is an astral badass. I don’t have tons of astral experience, it’s only happened to me twice when I meant for it to happen. More often than not, I would fall asleep trying I didn’t really know how to get into a deep meditative state yet, so I would just fall asleep. The few times I was successful though… wow. What an adventure. I remember first looking at my body still asleep on the bed, and thinking, “Yes!” I went from the basement up through the floor, and walked right through a door, after some coaxing from my guide. It was pretty cool. I’ll elaborate on that experience sometime. On another trip, I found myself intertwined from the waist down with the astral body of a boy that I knew… and lived with… and had a huge crush on. I’m not going to elaborate, but it was an amazing, and intense feeling. I woke up needing a smoke I often wondered if he “had the same dream” that afternoon… it happened spontaneously during a nap.

Now that I’m a little older, I meditate a bit better, and I have had my Reiki attunements I am hoping to devote more time in the near future to delve back into the workings of my own states of consciousness. Erin’s blog has many great blogs on the “subconscious consciousness”, and her experiences with such. I found myself reading her newest blog today, and I thought of the other night when I had such a terrible dream. Yes, the dream was really bad (I was being bludgeoned with what appeared to be a large wooden lollypop… from CandyLand perhaps?… I don’t know, but the dude who was doing the bashing, first had to chase me. (I’m fast btw…) But I’m slooooow as molasses in dreamland. He looked like something out of Mad Maxx or something. Some kind of post-apocalyptic warrior thug. Long dreaded up hair, war paint on his face, or maybe some sort of tribal markings. I don’t know. While he was hitting me, I kept saying “Awwww, come on man!” Anyhow… I woke up finally after struggling to do so.

Yeah, there was more to the dream, and the dream itself was less than pleasant, but it was the feeling that remained with me while I was awake at 3:30am that really sucked. Bobby, Christian, and I were staying at my mom’s place that night, and when I woke from my dream, I had the urgent instinct to leave… immediately. The dream had triggered a string of thoughts, and memories from when my brother was hanging with the wrong crowd, and doing Meth. He lived at my mom’s house at the time, and all those shady characters not only know where my mom lives, but they have been here many times. I often feared that they would come here and harm my mom, and stepdad trying to get to my brother… apparently the fear lingers. Now, I know that I am, myself pretty crafty, but what worries me is that I have a young child… I woke up Bobby, and told him that I wanted to leave, but it was 3:30-ish in the AM, and he wasn’t quite understanding what the hell was wrong with me. Poor guy. I got up, and stalked around the house in the dark (there are A LOT of windows in my mom’s house, which scares the crap out of me. I stood, and watched out the front window… and a car pulled up… As I watched, I came to relaize that it was just the paper delivery man. As I was standing there, my stepdad got up (it’s 4 something in the morning now) He brought their BIG dog Bear downstairs with him, and I felt much better. He had just returned home from a trip to Pheonix, and he was still on Pheonix time, so they were staying up. I explained why I was up, and then I felt better… especially with Bear downstairs, so I was able to get back to sleep.

Anyhow, I do not like feeling like that. That isn’t the first time either. Many times, when I wake from a dream in the middle of the night, I wonder if there’s not some purpose for my being awake, at whatever random hour. I always think I’m supposed to be awake for some reason. That was a really bad case, this last time. I have no idea why this happens to me. However, reading Erin’s blog this morning, was a breath of fresh air… I will certainly remember some of these tips… Enjoy!

How To Raise Your Vibration When You Feel Fear
December 27th, 2007

People often tell me stories of being afraid of going to sleep at night because they either fear, or know, they are going to have a negative experience. Perhaps it’s an encounter with a negative entity, sleep paralysis, the monster under the bed, or just plain fear of the dark. Sometimes it’s an irrational fear, and sometimes the fear is justified. Sometimes there really is something lurking just out of your awareness ready to pounce when you go to sleep, and sometimes you’re just afraid because you watched a scary movie.

Sometimes these fears carry on into the daytime, but most of the time people are more afraid at night when they feel less capable of handling the unknown. Lately, I’ve had a lot of emails from people who have become debilitated by the fear that something paranormal or supernatural is going to happen to them. In some cases they’ve been told by psychics that they are cursed (lordy), or they’ve actually had an encounter or two with something negative that they can’t explain.

When you go to sleep in a state of fear you are asking to be visited by something negative. It’s like your mind just sends out a beacon of light saying, “I’m over here. Come and get me!” It’s important to change your state before you go to bed so you can feel more empowered and so you can actually be more empowered to handle whatever’s gonna getcha!

Following are some ways to raise your vibration during the day and evening so you don’t attract something negative when you go to sleep:

Humor: Spend as much time laughing as you can. Go to a comedy club, watch a funny movie or tv show, hang out with humorous people, read some jokes before you go to sleep.

Gratitude: Spend each night before you go to bed thinking of what you are grateful for and in what ways you feel blessed. This raises your vibration very high.

Compassion: Help someone less fortunate than you or someone that just needs help with something in their life. Offer to lend a hand to a friend.

Love: Express love and allow yourself to receive love. If you’re not in a relationship think about getting an animal companion, or just express love to your family and friends.

Sing and dance: Even if you do it alone in your living room. Put on some inspirational music and sing and dance. Be free, go wild, get into it. Close the curtains.

Luxury: Do something for yourself that you consider a luxury, and allow yourself to feel feel like you deserve it. No shame or guilt for doing this thing. It could be something like a massage or pedicure, or ice cream sundae, or just sitting on a swing in a park. This helps you strengthen your third chakra (your power chakra), and makes you less of a target.

Joy: What makes you feel joyous? Do something totally fun either during the day or before you go to sleep, like working on a hobby or chatting with a friend.

Water: Water is really good for removing negative energy. Take a warm/hot bath, or take a shower before bed.

Also, you should try to stay away from people who are in a low vibrational state like guilt, shame, depression, anger, or fear. Their energy can rub off on you.

Before you go to sleep ask the angels to keep watch over you. Feel their love and light around you. If you find yourself in any sort of trouble you can call on the angels for help. If that doesn’t work, tell the demon one of the jokes from your joke book.

~ by starrgrrrl on December 28, 2007.